Saturday, September 6, 2008
Jia-my new awakening: Learning Life all over again!!
"Certain is it that there is no kind of affection so purely angelic as of a father to a daughter. In love to our wives there is desire; to our sons, ambition; but to our daughters there is something which there are no words to express." ~Joseph Addison
How true!! Pure,true slefless love is what I experience when around my litle angel.No words can do justice to the warmth she cause to my being. I adore just being with her & noticing her talks,acts & sheer display of raw innocent emotions!Time stands still & everything else seems trivial.The sheer joy on her face ,the glint in her eyes & the smile on her lips convey what she tries to convey.
It’s strange how events turn into memories and memories fade so soon. I know I have said this before, but it’s just the mystery of it all that makes me wonder again and again. Jia is now almost 3years, come Jan1’09 and the memories of her first few days/months are slowly fading away. It sounds shocking, I know. But I don't remember what all happened distinctly now. I remember the progress that has happened, but I don't remember what happened each and every day. It’s like the sand in the hourglass is falling and there are some specks I remember, but most of the specks of sand have drifted away to be lost in time.Well, I didn't really start writing this post with all that in mind. This was supposed to be an account of the progress of Jia as such, but my thoughts also have a habit of drifting away:-D.
I've said many times that it’s been a pleasure watching her grow, but haven't really explained how it all comes about. The changes are so noticeable that it’s like it was not there yesterday, but its there today. And that’s the part that’s astonishing. I always had this idea that as parents we'd "teach" stuff to the baby and what I've discovered is that we don't really need to "teach" her anything. It’s like you do what you do normally and she learns everything slowly all on her own. And the whole thing is oh-so-gratifying :).
My connection-real connection with Jia dawned d day I saw her during an ultrasound at a maternity clinic in Dammam, SaudiArabia. Kavi was 5months pregnant then.It was 5.Sept’05 &a lazy evening! I was shown the baby growing with her heart, brain, and hands n legs! Something suddenly inside me snapped! I felt a unique divine connection with d LORD! His creation, his blessing of life! Pearls of tears rolled down my cheeks & for once in my life I was speechless…Yes! Speechless! It was just soft prayer to the LORD for showcasing his creation! I could not sleep a wink all night! I was just recollecting what I had seen & it enabled me realize that soon enough I would be a father!! First time in my life, I wept like a little child…wept in happiness that soon enough I would be seeing a part of me & kavi in front of our eyes.Eversince life has been different!! My life changed that night!! A new sense of responsibility & care took shape deep within me! I have never been the same again!
Dec 28’05,Kavi was suddenly told by the gynac that the baby was a standing breach & hence would need a cesarean section .We were asked to choose the day & lo,I jumped at the idea of Jan 1st as d day Jia would come into our lives! God willed it so too! Kavi was admitted on Dec 31’05 & all night I could not sleep! I was praying like crazy, all trough the night for a healthy, normal baby with no complications to either Kavi or the baby! Jan 1’06!!Yes I lit the morning lamp at the LORD’S alter & rushed to Kavi’s side. Bingo! 11.08am, my sis Suji who was allowed to assist the operation came out with thumbs up sign & said “congrats!!She is just like an angel-pink n cute”! Phew!! My heart started thundering with happiness and only HE knows the nos of grateful thanks that I said to myself!!
Jia’s 1st sight –all pinky, cute rolled in a soft blanket being carried out of Operation Theater by my sister & Kavi on a stretcher is a sight I would never forget. First thing I did was hug Kavi & hold our little baby & soak in all the divine vibrations I was experiencing at the mere sight of this sweet little bundle of joy. My 1st impression was that she looked much like Kavi!!
When Jia was born, as it is with all babies, she was silent, meaning no activities most of the time. Yes, she'd cry when she was hungry (I still can't get over the idea that doctors call it the not-so-developed stage despite the fact that her-stomach in empty -> it-sends-a-signal-to-her-brain -> her-brain-sends-signals-to-eyes-and-mouth-for-crying -> she cries and as soon as she's fed the crying stops! If this is "not developed", what is? :-p) but most of the other times, she'd sleep.
Slowly, things started to change.She started smiling first sometime in her second or third month. This was random and with no connection to anybody/anything whatsoever. Some people even say that these might be due to gas bubbles ;-). But soon, she started to focus on faces and smile. Then slowly went on to laugh. I remember the first time she laughed loudly; she was alone in her crib. I thought she was crying and came running and discovered with wonder that she was actually laughing! And yeah I promptly ran back to get the camera to record this "achievement”:-D. Now-a-days she recognizes faces and smiles widely, laughs when tickled or when the person she's watching is laughing :).Another progress that people usually keep track of is the movement. At first she stayed where she was (Obviously, she's not a calf to start running as soon as she was born:-p). Then one fine day, in April, when we were in India, she rolled on to her stomach from her back (we never "taught" her how to:-D). And the thrill was memorable. From then on she'd fall on her stomach whenever and then cry as she still didn't know how to roll back. At first she'd do this only during the day, so we'd be around to lift her back onto her back. Still later when we returned to KSA, she started doing it in nights too. So she'd cry in the middle of the night and we'd realize that she has rolled onto her stomach:-D. She was like Abhimanyu, knowing only to enter the circle and not get out :-D. But suddnely one day she tried and tried and rolled back to laying on her back all on her own :)). And she's been on a roll eversince, excuse the pun ;-). At first her rolls would be haphazard, as in she'd roll under a table/to the edge of the sofa. Now she has learnt even to target her rolls. I have to narrate this incident - recently Jia was lying in the center of the hall and I had my laptop open in one corner. She saw the laptop screen and then aimed her rolling in such a way that she ended up peeping right at the screen of the laptop! she was trying to lift her stomach. Previously she used to be supported by her wrists while on her stomach, but now she has graduated to palms. So we were looking forward to her sitting up/crawling soon :-D.She dindt disapooin for log.Aug'06 she sat n started crawling!I was there nex to her when she did it for teh 1st time! Euphoria was my feeling!!
Other than these, her voice which was previously only for crying has advanced to different tones. In addition to laughter, there is a tone for protest, one for response, a squeal, and various other "Ha"s, "Tha"s, "Ma"s and "Dha"s. Now she cries if strangers get too close (happened at her last check-up where she cried at the touch of the nurse and the doctor) and cries if my voice raises a bit in volume/tone :-D. In other words she recognizes a scolding I give her ;-) :-D. She also cries at the bang of utensils (if they fall down or make sounds when they are being rearranged) and at the whistle of a pressure cooker :)). Slowly, she's learning fear and its a fascinating thing to see the changes :). She loves watching moving people and now recently, moving cars.But the best of all these, according to me, is the grasp development I've been noticing very closely.
Before we left to India in Sept'06, I bought her a smooth rattle. She wasn't really able to hold it in her palm then. Later she learnt to hold it with both hands and still later went on to holding it in a single hand. It was then we tried squeaking toys (in her case a squeeking toy bear). It was so different from the rattle that she wasn't able to hold it even using 2 hands. Slowly she learned to. Till one day when I discovered her holding it in one palm! Then she learnt to pass the toys from one hand to another, to hold soft toys and later bigger toys. Just yesterday I was really surprised to see that she was squeezing the squeeking toy and making it squeek! She wasn't able to do that a few months back!
Times have rolled by, she is now a baby grown enough to attend school in next few months! Her growth, her acts, her expressions, her talks, her games, her dances, her smiles have all touched the innermost corners of my heart. I can’t seem to enjoy anything else but Jia’s company! She is my de-stresser! I can’t wait to rush back home to be with her at the end of stressful days at work! Jia is all entertainment! Amidst all these are forgotten the pangs of pain when she is ill or quiet! I can’t bear it when she is silent or not her playful smiling self. I jump to soothe any of her complaints or questions. Fatherhood! Yes the experience is what no words can ever describe! Fatherhood-has changed me! It’s blissful & all I ever pray is now for this feeling to last a life time!!
A son is a son till he takes him a wife, a daughter is a daughter all of her life. ~Irish Saying. I did not beleive it till recently.Now my little angel-all of 2years 9month,suddenly makes me realise that this great words are but true! Even at this tender age ,she leave aside all that she is engrossed-playing with & rushes to our sides whenever me or Kavi play act or say something is hurting or bothering us! Jia immediately kisses that part & says "dont worry, I hv given u a kiss n u will be ok soon"! She tries to do equal justice to both me & Kavi & you can actually feel the gush of happiness she gets when both of us huddle upto her whilst she sleeps blissfully like a princess between us!
I can't really explain what a thrill it is to see these so-called minor changes. It’s like, each and every hour of the day she's learning new things. Her brain is assimilating new information every minute and it’s an absolutely amazing phenomenon to watch as parents. I don't even have the words to describe the joy I feel whenever I see a new lesson learnt :). And imagine, this is only the beginning. There's so much for her to learn, so much more to do. I'm sure it'll all not be easy, but oh man, its gonna be so much fun. And I'm already looking forward to the whole thing :) a NEW AWAKENING…A NEW beginning…..A NEW LEARNIN OF LIFE..ALL OVER AGAIN….THROUGH THE EYES/EXPERIENCES OF MY LITTLE ANGLEIC PRINCESS.
Jia beta, Dadda luvs u like no words can do justice to!!! U r indeed my new awakening
sweetheart!! Amidst all these,my own childhood memories run through my eyes & now realise what/how my parents might have felt when I was small & dindt understand why/what they said & meant.Now I realise, learn,understand & hence there we go.....a new learning all over...understanding my own parents..thanks to Jia.....the cycle is coming round-all over again!Life is repeating history!A new beginning taking shape yet again......
"There's something like a line of gold thread running through a man's words when he talks to his daughter, and gradually over the years it gets to be long enough for you to pick up in your hands and weave into a cloth that feels like love itself "~John Gregory Brown
How true!! Pure,true slefless love is what I experience when around my litle angel.No words can do justice to the warmth she cause to my being. I adore just being with her & noticing her talks,acts & sheer display of raw innocent emotions!Time stands still & everything else seems trivial.The sheer joy on her face ,the glint in her eyes & the smile on her lips convey what she tries to convey.
It’s strange how events turn into memories and memories fade so soon. I know I have said this before, but it’s just the mystery of it all that makes me wonder again and again. Jia is now almost 3years, come Jan1’09 and the memories of her first few days/months are slowly fading away. It sounds shocking, I know. But I don't remember what all happened distinctly now. I remember the progress that has happened, but I don't remember what happened each and every day. It’s like the sand in the hourglass is falling and there are some specks I remember, but most of the specks of sand have drifted away to be lost in time.Well, I didn't really start writing this post with all that in mind. This was supposed to be an account of the progress of Jia as such, but my thoughts also have a habit of drifting away:-D.
I've said many times that it’s been a pleasure watching her grow, but haven't really explained how it all comes about. The changes are so noticeable that it’s like it was not there yesterday, but its there today. And that’s the part that’s astonishing. I always had this idea that as parents we'd "teach" stuff to the baby and what I've discovered is that we don't really need to "teach" her anything. It’s like you do what you do normally and she learns everything slowly all on her own. And the whole thing is oh-so-gratifying :).
My connection-real connection with Jia dawned d day I saw her during an ultrasound at a maternity clinic in Dammam, SaudiArabia. Kavi was 5months pregnant then.It was 5.Sept’05 &a lazy evening! I was shown the baby growing with her heart, brain, and hands n legs! Something suddenly inside me snapped! I felt a unique divine connection with d LORD! His creation, his blessing of life! Pearls of tears rolled down my cheeks & for once in my life I was speechless…Yes! Speechless! It was just soft prayer to the LORD for showcasing his creation! I could not sleep a wink all night! I was just recollecting what I had seen & it enabled me realize that soon enough I would be a father!! First time in my life, I wept like a little child…wept in happiness that soon enough I would be seeing a part of me & kavi in front of our eyes.Eversince life has been different!! My life changed that night!! A new sense of responsibility & care took shape deep within me! I have never been the same again!
Dec 28’05,Kavi was suddenly told by the gynac that the baby was a standing breach & hence would need a cesarean section .We were asked to choose the day & lo,I jumped at the idea of Jan 1st as d day Jia would come into our lives! God willed it so too! Kavi was admitted on Dec 31’05 & all night I could not sleep! I was praying like crazy, all trough the night for a healthy, normal baby with no complications to either Kavi or the baby! Jan 1’06!!Yes I lit the morning lamp at the LORD’S alter & rushed to Kavi’s side. Bingo! 11.08am, my sis Suji who was allowed to assist the operation came out with thumbs up sign & said “congrats!!She is just like an angel-pink n cute”! Phew!! My heart started thundering with happiness and only HE knows the nos of grateful thanks that I said to myself!!
Jia’s 1st sight –all pinky, cute rolled in a soft blanket being carried out of Operation Theater by my sister & Kavi on a stretcher is a sight I would never forget. First thing I did was hug Kavi & hold our little baby & soak in all the divine vibrations I was experiencing at the mere sight of this sweet little bundle of joy. My 1st impression was that she looked much like Kavi!!
When Jia was born, as it is with all babies, she was silent, meaning no activities most of the time. Yes, she'd cry when she was hungry (I still can't get over the idea that doctors call it the not-so-developed stage despite the fact that her-stomach in empty -> it-sends-a-signal-to-her-brain -> her-brain-sends-signals-to-eyes-and-mouth-for-crying -> she cries and as soon as she's fed the crying stops! If this is "not developed", what is? :-p) but most of the other times, she'd sleep.
Slowly, things started to change.She started smiling first sometime in her second or third month. This was random and with no connection to anybody/anything whatsoever. Some people even say that these might be due to gas bubbles ;-). But soon, she started to focus on faces and smile. Then slowly went on to laugh. I remember the first time she laughed loudly; she was alone in her crib. I thought she was crying and came running and discovered with wonder that she was actually laughing! And yeah I promptly ran back to get the camera to record this "achievement”:-D. Now-a-days she recognizes faces and smiles widely, laughs when tickled or when the person she's watching is laughing :).Another progress that people usually keep track of is the movement. At first she stayed where she was (Obviously, she's not a calf to start running as soon as she was born:-p). Then one fine day, in April, when we were in India, she rolled on to her stomach from her back (we never "taught" her how to:-D). And the thrill was memorable. From then on she'd fall on her stomach whenever and then cry as she still didn't know how to roll back. At first she'd do this only during the day, so we'd be around to lift her back onto her back. Still later when we returned to KSA, she started doing it in nights too. So she'd cry in the middle of the night and we'd realize that she has rolled onto her stomach:-D. She was like Abhimanyu, knowing only to enter the circle and not get out :-D. But suddnely one day she tried and tried and rolled back to laying on her back all on her own :)). And she's been on a roll eversince, excuse the pun ;-). At first her rolls would be haphazard, as in she'd roll under a table/to the edge of the sofa. Now she has learnt even to target her rolls. I have to narrate this incident - recently Jia was lying in the center of the hall and I had my laptop open in one corner. She saw the laptop screen and then aimed her rolling in such a way that she ended up peeping right at the screen of the laptop! she was trying to lift her stomach. Previously she used to be supported by her wrists while on her stomach, but now she has graduated to palms. So we were looking forward to her sitting up/crawling soon :-D.She dindt disapooin for log.Aug'06 she sat n started crawling!I was there nex to her when she did it for teh 1st time! Euphoria was my feeling!!
Other than these, her voice which was previously only for crying has advanced to different tones. In addition to laughter, there is a tone for protest, one for response, a squeal, and various other "Ha"s, "Tha"s, "Ma"s and "Dha"s. Now she cries if strangers get too close (happened at her last check-up where she cried at the touch of the nurse and the doctor) and cries if my voice raises a bit in volume/tone :-D. In other words she recognizes a scolding I give her ;-) :-D. She also cries at the bang of utensils (if they fall down or make sounds when they are being rearranged) and at the whistle of a pressure cooker :)). Slowly, she's learning fear and its a fascinating thing to see the changes :). She loves watching moving people and now recently, moving cars.But the best of all these, according to me, is the grasp development I've been noticing very closely.
Before we left to India in Sept'06, I bought her a smooth rattle. She wasn't really able to hold it in her palm then. Later she learnt to hold it with both hands and still later went on to holding it in a single hand. It was then we tried squeaking toys (in her case a squeeking toy bear). It was so different from the rattle that she wasn't able to hold it even using 2 hands. Slowly she learned to. Till one day when I discovered her holding it in one palm! Then she learnt to pass the toys from one hand to another, to hold soft toys and later bigger toys. Just yesterday I was really surprised to see that she was squeezing the squeeking toy and making it squeek! She wasn't able to do that a few months back!
Times have rolled by, she is now a baby grown enough to attend school in next few months! Her growth, her acts, her expressions, her talks, her games, her dances, her smiles have all touched the innermost corners of my heart. I can’t seem to enjoy anything else but Jia’s company! She is my de-stresser! I can’t wait to rush back home to be with her at the end of stressful days at work! Jia is all entertainment! Amidst all these are forgotten the pangs of pain when she is ill or quiet! I can’t bear it when she is silent or not her playful smiling self. I jump to soothe any of her complaints or questions. Fatherhood! Yes the experience is what no words can ever describe! Fatherhood-has changed me! It’s blissful & all I ever pray is now for this feeling to last a life time!!
A son is a son till he takes him a wife, a daughter is a daughter all of her life. ~Irish Saying. I did not beleive it till recently.Now my little angel-all of 2years 9month,suddenly makes me realise that this great words are but true! Even at this tender age ,she leave aside all that she is engrossed-playing with & rushes to our sides whenever me or Kavi play act or say something is hurting or bothering us! Jia immediately kisses that part & says "dont worry, I hv given u a kiss n u will be ok soon"! She tries to do equal justice to both me & Kavi & you can actually feel the gush of happiness she gets when both of us huddle upto her whilst she sleeps blissfully like a princess between us!
I can't really explain what a thrill it is to see these so-called minor changes. It’s like, each and every hour of the day she's learning new things. Her brain is assimilating new information every minute and it’s an absolutely amazing phenomenon to watch as parents. I don't even have the words to describe the joy I feel whenever I see a new lesson learnt :). And imagine, this is only the beginning. There's so much for her to learn, so much more to do. I'm sure it'll all not be easy, but oh man, its gonna be so much fun. And I'm already looking forward to the whole thing :) a NEW AWAKENING…A NEW beginning…..A NEW LEARNIN OF LIFE..ALL OVER AGAIN….THROUGH THE EYES/EXPERIENCES OF MY LITTLE ANGLEIC PRINCESS.
Jia beta, Dadda luvs u like no words can do justice to!!! U r indeed my new awakening
sweetheart!! Amidst all these,my own childhood memories run through my eyes & now realise what/how my parents might have felt when I was small & dindt understand why/what they said & meant.Now I realise, learn,understand & hence there we go.....a new learning all over...understanding my own parents..thanks to Jia.....the cycle is coming round-all over again!Life is repeating history!A new beginning taking shape yet again......
"There's something like a line of gold thread running through a man's words when he talks to his daughter, and gradually over the years it gets to be long enough for you to pick up in your hands and weave into a cloth that feels like love itself "~John Gregory Brown
Kavitha....my anchor, my heart, my soul & my wife!
A wife is the joy of a man's heart.-- Talmud
Being a wife can be a challenge and one of the biggest roles that a woman can take on. It's easier to be loving during the early years of a relationship where everything is fresh and new. It takes commitment and dedication to remain loving in a long marriage, especially one where the busyness of daily life and children can be overwhelming at times.
It's a wonderful thing whenever I'm to come across scrapbook layouts where a loving wife splashes out her loving thoughts towards her husband, their marriage and their commitment to each other even after years of marriage. I thought it befitting that I should let the world know about a wife & who better than my own wife-Kavi!
Being a wife can be a challenge and one of the biggest roles that a woman can take on. It's easier to be loving during the early years of a relationship where everything is fresh and new. It takes commitment and dedication to remain loving in a long marriage, especially one where the busyness of daily life and children can be overwhelming at times.
It's a wonderful thing whenever I'm to come across scrapbook layouts where a loving wife splashes out her loving thoughts towards her husband, their marriage and their commitment to each other even after years of marriage. I thought it befitting that I should let the world know about a wife & who better than my own wife-Kavi!
Meanwhile,I realise its not easy to write about your life partner.Like life,there are possibilities that we tend to take our life partners for granted & realise we never give them enough credit for what they bring to our life & who thay are.Hence this exercise to key in about my life anchor-Kavi.
I have seen Kavi evolve-from the loving girl next door, to the beautiful girlfriend , interesting housewife & a awesome mother! All these bring a little smile as some of the incidents shared with KAVI till date are quite amusing. Inspiring, funny,thought provoking.....and lot more...as she never ceases to impress me with her growth....through her acts,talks & ways......
Hence this endeavour to express myself about my dear wife,Kavi – my anchor....
Well Well Well, I understand suddenly what is called pressure when I know that my wife Kavi has been waiting anxiously to read & know what I had to say about her & her impact in my life ,all along.
But then, I know not how to frame into words the exact value Kavi has brought into my life ! For the 1st time in my life, I feel short of words! I’m sure anything/everything I say would be dissected to the core & envisaged in different shades .Suddenly I’m realizing why they say that a written word can either be a life saving nectar or the poison of death.Yet I want to lay to rest once for all what it is write of someone closet to you.Kavi knows me inside/out & much better than anyone else! Sometimes I feel she knows me better than me myself (wink , like all wives do!) !
Its often said that the purest & deepest of emotions are to be felt & not said! I would like to take refuge in those lines as I know for sure that no words can do the fullest & real justice to what you mean to me Kavi & what you are in my life!!
Hence, let try to convey whatever I can with this small poem that I conjured in my heart on 19th Sept’08 having known Kavi as my love, wife & now mother of my angel,Jia …..
To My Wonderful Wife - Kavi
How do I begin to tell you how lucky I am to have you in my life?
Well Well Well, I understand suddenly what is called pressure when I know that my wife Kavi has been waiting anxiously to read & know what I had to say about her & her impact in my life ,all along.
But then, I know not how to frame into words the exact value Kavi has brought into my life ! For the 1st time in my life, I feel short of words! I’m sure anything/everything I say would be dissected to the core & envisaged in different shades .Suddenly I’m realizing why they say that a written word can either be a life saving nectar or the poison of death.Yet I want to lay to rest once for all what it is write of someone closet to you.Kavi knows me inside/out & much better than anyone else! Sometimes I feel she knows me better than me myself (wink , like all wives do!) !
Its often said that the purest & deepest of emotions are to be felt & not said! I would like to take refuge in those lines as I know for sure that no words can do the fullest & real justice to what you mean to me Kavi & what you are in my life!!
Hence, let try to convey whatever I can with this small poem that I conjured in my heart on 19th Sept’08 having known Kavi as my love, wife & now mother of my angel,Jia …..
To My Wonderful Wife - Kavi
How do I begin to tell you how lucky I am to have you in my life?
I'll start by saying what a gift you gave me the day you became my wife.
You're my best friend in the good times and my rock in times of sorrow.
You're the reason for sweet yesterdays and my promise for tomorrow.
I never thought I could feel this loved until you became my wife.
You made my life and I could not ask for more!!
Kavi, you came into my life out of the blue like a comet & have revolutionized it ever since! I vividly recollect you having come home with your dad as a cute, sweet ,pinky doll who would sit silently with just a few smiles thrown in. It was my 1st ever notice of you & it has stayed with me till date! I see a mirror image of that bygone kid of yourself in our little Jia ,sometimes! That is when,I go speechless & start smiling to myself……. Thanking God for bringing you & subsequently Jia into my life!
Lot has happened ever since I 1st ever saw you years back & lot is yet to happen in our lives, together…….& I know deep within me that you were always meant to be –my soul mate/my wife !
We have seen various shades of life in the last 6 years of our married life,together! You have been my shadow in facing all the challenges hat life throws at us & giving your shoulder gamely each time to surmount the odds life has been teasing us with .Amidst all these ,with various turmoil in our lives ,I could not sleep one night and these are a culmination of the words that were in my head.
Lot has happened ever since I 1st ever saw you years back & lot is yet to happen in our lives, together…….& I know deep within me that you were always meant to be –my soul mate/my wife !
We have seen various shades of life in the last 6 years of our married life,together! You have been my shadow in facing all the challenges hat life throws at us & giving your shoulder gamely each time to surmount the odds life has been teasing us with .Amidst all these ,with various turmoil in our lives ,I could not sleep one night and these are a culmination of the words that were in my head.
My Life, My Wife-Kavi
I always felt You were the one I'd be with all my life.
I always felt You were the one I'd be with all my life.
We met, we loved,We lived romantically &
then you became my wife.
We shared some great times, Good and bad!
We shared some great times, Good and bad!
We laughed when happy ,Cried when sad.
As time went on,Our hearts did lift
As time went on,Our hearts did lift
When we were blessed with god's greatest gifts.
Our child Jia too brought a wealth of joy we never knew.
That's when life got in the way,the stresses of work,
the fickle ways of life And not enough time to play.
I carried on a futile quest chasing dreams and happiness
Our child Jia too brought a wealth of joy we never knew.
That's when life got in the way,the stresses of work,
the fickle ways of life And not enough time to play.
I carried on a futile quest chasing dreams and happiness
Trying hard to do my/our best
But ended up with so much less
It's not that easy
It's not that easy
As we now know It never was, right from the start
One thing we learned, as we did go
Is happiness Only comes from the heart!!
Must confess here that you have been all heart!You have given your heart,mind & soul to our relation .You have given it a deeper meaning & stature with your selfless love & charming ways.
Its often read n said that life of a man is anchored around his wife! Nothing can be further from the truth. I’m a live example! I’m not easily impressed! I never was contented with anything in life!But then,it changed! It changed when you came into my life! Thanks to you Kavi,I found Happiness & at ease with what HE has chosen for me & blessed me with ,as my life partner-you!
Its often read n said that life of a man is anchored around his wife! Nothing can be further from the truth. I’m a live example! I’m not easily impressed! I never was contented with anything in life!But then,it changed! It changed when you came into my life! Thanks to you Kavi,I found Happiness & at ease with what HE has chosen for me & blessed me with ,as my life partner-you!
My Greatest Happiness
This is my greatest happiness--
This is my greatest happiness--
To spend my life with you,
Sharing trials and triumphs,
Joys and problems, too,
To see your smiles in the morning
And hold you close at night,
To know we'll be together
Whether days are gray or bright,
Sharing all the little things
That make our daily life
. . . This is my greatest happiness--
To have you for my wife.
Hey dearest Kavi , You never cease to amuse me with your words, thoughts , ways & acts. Amidst all these you continue to impress me every single day with your own unique brand of ideas/innovations & hidden talents. Keep it going sweets. My Expectations are beyond boundaries for your success & growth as a person. You sure are capable of much more than what you know about yourself!
You have excelled as a wife & as a mother! I have seen the metamorphosis from the girl whom I romanced prior marriage to the wife of today & the mother of my baby.You have been awesome! You have far exceeded my expectations & am sure you are doing your parents proud! My humble salutations of your dear parents to nurturing you with all their goodies & & making you the person you are! I’m proud of you sweetheart!
We have a long way to go ahead of us.We do not know what life has in store for us,together .But I’m sure ,with you as my anchor & strength , we can & we shall succeed in all our endeavours through various kolors of life ,together with your unflinching support, pure luv, genuine care & active participation !!
I’m glad & feel privileged that you are in my life……as my anchor & luv you for whom you are….& much more than any words could express......
Together through life!
Hand in hand we walk together,
Together through life!
Hand in hand we walk together,
God's grace warms us from above.
It's him I thank each day
I wake for blessing me with all your love.
The sunshine in my morning and
the bird that sings my song.
In this life when I am troubled ,
through God it's you who keeps me strong.
through God it's you who keeps me strong.
The wind beneath my wings
as this bird of life takes to flight.
You are the stars that brighten up my sky in the darkness of the night.
The mother of my child-Jia and
the air that gives me life.
My truest & best friend of all...
my heart, my soul, my anchor…..
my wife Kavi.!!
Thank you sweetheart for everything & due heartfelt apologies, if whatever I say & do hurts you ever!! Just want to let you know that these immortal words by Sir Charles Gavan Duffy are what I have always prayed us to be..... "My best chosen friend, companion, guide, to walk through life, linked hand-in-hand, two equal, loving friends, true husband and true wife".
On your part, you have been much more than what a ideal wife is supposed to be.I can now exclaim as I have & completely agree with what was stated by Harold MacMillan " "No man succeeds without a good woman behind him. Wife or mother, if it is both, he is twice blessed indeed".I feel that I'm blessed indeed & thank God for that!!
yours, forever & always (without a shadow of doubt!!)
(I do not want to say I love u dear, as I want u to feel that in my words, actions, thoughts, looks & irrespective of what phase of life we are in & what people have to say!!)
Thursday, September 4, 2008
To Ma'am with Love...
With the light of knowledge, with the light of loveThe light of good deeds to show me the right pathWho is the one who lit my lamp?
First day in my school,
In the midst of unknowns,
Who is the one who hugged me and blessed?
An immense inspiration,
A spring of encouragement,
Who is the souvenir of my vision and strength?
“My child” she said, “Do your work with mastery”,
No issues she had, her pupils made her history,
Cancer stricken her last days, her death’s a great misery!
She is the one …Yes, She is the one,
The one I look up to, the one I adore,
The one I admire for all her endurance and assistance…..
Words are not enough to define the bond we shared .The legacy she left with me, is an over all feeling, indefinable and indescribable, to be carried with me throughout my life. The news I got about her death made me recollect our good old days.Her soul to be rested in peace, indeed a great teacher with a great smile…
First day in my school,
In the midst of unknowns,
Who is the one who hugged me and blessed?
An immense inspiration,
A spring of encouragement,
Who is the souvenir of my vision and strength?
“My child” she said, “Do your work with mastery”,
No issues she had, her pupils made her history,
Cancer stricken her last days, her death’s a great misery!
She is the one …Yes, She is the one,
The one I look up to, the one I adore,
The one I admire for all her endurance and assistance…..
Words are not enough to define the bond we shared .The legacy she left with me, is an over all feeling, indefinable and indescribable, to be carried with me throughout my life. The news I got about her death made me recollect our good old days.Her soul to be rested in peace, indeed a great teacher with a great smile…
A Great Writer#
Anything and everything under the sun, and beyond it, qualifies as a subject to write. When we speak about writings, the aim is not to be comprehensive or exhaustive, but to give an idea of how a subject may be treated - how to begin, how to develop the theme, and how to end.
It has always been an inner urge to write something whenever the streams of thoughts flow. Sometimes, we feel it vital to preserve our thoughts and assemble those. He writes nothing whose writings are not read :). So, got a few postings.
I remember a young man who professed a desire to become a “great writer”. When asked to define “ great”, he said “I want to write stuff that the whole world will read, stuff that people will react to on a truly emotional level, stuff that will make them scream, cry, wail, and howl in pain, desperation, and anger!”He now works for Microsoft, writing error messages :-))
It has always been an inner urge to write something whenever the streams of thoughts flow. Sometimes, we feel it vital to preserve our thoughts and assemble those. He writes nothing whose writings are not read :). So, got a few postings.
I remember a young man who professed a desire to become a “great writer”. When asked to define “ great”, he said “I want to write stuff that the whole world will read, stuff that people will react to on a truly emotional level, stuff that will make them scream, cry, wail, and howl in pain, desperation, and anger!”He now works for Microsoft, writing error messages :-))
1st April-April Fools Day!!
Fool's day $...
April Fool's Day or All Fools' Day is a notable day, celebrated by the execution of hoaxes and practical jokes of varying sophistication with the goal of having fun.
The custom of playing practical jokes on April Fool's Day is very widespread and of uncertain origins. The victim of a joke is known in English as an April Fool; in Scots as a gowk (cuckoo or fool); and in French as a poisson d'avril (April fish). It has been suggested the custom may have had something to do with the move of the New Year's date, when people who forgot or didn't accept the new date system were given invitations to nonexistent parties, funny gifts, etc. Today, observed almost by all age groups to take a break from the busy schedule & rejoice.
A "for-fun-only" observance., Pranks performed on April fool’s Day range from the simple, such as saying, "Your shoe's untied!” or setting a roommate's alarm clock back an hour … Whatever the prank, the trickster usually ends it by yelling to his victim, "April Fool!"
"Back to the memory lane, I remember an April fool’s day when I was in my Engineering ,preparaing for our exams in the Bangalore University.I had a few friends in the male hostel ,where it was widely understaood that the liley question papaers for the exasm would be leaked & available. So my hostel mates were quite intelligent who were aware of the next day gimmicks. The previous day itself, were posing challenges to each other …they couldn’t be fooled ever. Next day morning, all of us had breakfast together in the mess, & left the place. I remembered, I haven’t had tea as it was too hot & went back there to have one. The mess boy returned Rs.50 & notified, the monthly mess fees which were paid the previous day were slashed since this month, so inform others too to collect the money from me. I shook my head, & came back to my room with a new scheme to make this fool’s day momentous. I informed one of my neighbors seriously, “the mess fees we paid yesterday are increased as of this month. I paid my money. You people are asked to pay immediately.”This guy knocked each door & the news spread like any buzz, all the guys formed meeting & collecting the money headed towards the mess. I was waiting in my room for my roommate (who was my best friend too), to tell these funnies but before I said anything, he too ran away to mess with 50 Rs. I dint stop…one more feather in the cap:))I was waiting for the blast when the guys arrived, but amazing! No reaction. They behaved normally. “Did u pay?”, I asked. All shook head. Guess, the mess boy was clever enuff, collected money & sat quiet. Then, I confessed, “U people are fooled, we don’t have to pay ...but we are to get money back as the mess bills are slashed from this month.” Shock! Surprise! & Tension!...all fools have paid money & the lad has kept it with him.Hustle and bustle …all guys formed a mass, ran down to the mess, found him out & asked the money back. Warden was there itself…& he gave each of them Rs. 50 back. “the other 50??” they yelled . “It’s only 50 to return” he said. Warden was watching.... “only 50/ to be given back…he has given that, right?”. Guys anxiously… “No Sir he has to give 50/more which we paid some time ago because of our buddy’s “April Fool” passion. There loomed the boy; laughing & blaring …returned the bonus :)
Guys, Warden & the boy…couldn’t resist mirth … the fun was pretty memorable.
"The first of April is the day we remember what we are the other 364 days of the year."-- Mark Twain . Hmmmmm…quite true ;)Could not agree with him more
& & & how on earth can I not mention dat APRIL 1st is my DAD's B'day too!Watz more interesting is d fact dat its my Mother-in-law's B'day too!?? To my amussement I seem to have a real bondage with April1st as most of the mother's of the females who I was closest during my growing up years were all April1st born!! ya..its true! Belive it or not!!!
Dat reminds me 2 add a titbit: My dad was the 6th child to my grandparents.Those were the days without phones or cell phones! My grandma was pregnant with my dad & was ideally expected to deliver a baby sometime in May'1940! She had gone to her relatives house on 1.April'1940 by walk climbing up the hills in Bayer,a suburb of M'lore. All the other siblings of my dad were mostly grown up & alsmot into employment,higher studies etc as there was a long gap between this prgenancy & the ones earlier(was told that my grandpa was busy travelling those e years of separation..hehehe).So when my dad was actually born on April1st no one belived it as no one expected my granny woudl deliver a month in advance.On top of it,my grandma was quiet a happening lady & was famous for playing practical jokes on others.So when she was actually crying out aloud in pain,no one bothered ot go near her at her friend's place as they thought my grandma was playing her APRIL FOOL Prank!!! sigh...........
So 3 cheers to April Fools' day!!
April Fool's Day or All Fools' Day is a notable day, celebrated by the execution of hoaxes and practical jokes of varying sophistication with the goal of having fun.
The custom of playing practical jokes on April Fool's Day is very widespread and of uncertain origins. The victim of a joke is known in English as an April Fool; in Scots as a gowk (cuckoo or fool); and in French as a poisson d'avril (April fish). It has been suggested the custom may have had something to do with the move of the New Year's date, when people who forgot or didn't accept the new date system were given invitations to nonexistent parties, funny gifts, etc. Today, observed almost by all age groups to take a break from the busy schedule & rejoice.
A "for-fun-only" observance., Pranks performed on April fool’s Day range from the simple, such as saying, "Your shoe's untied!” or setting a roommate's alarm clock back an hour … Whatever the prank, the trickster usually ends it by yelling to his victim, "April Fool!"
"Back to the memory lane, I remember an April fool’s day when I was in my Engineering ,preparaing for our exams in the Bangalore University.I had a few friends in the male hostel ,where it was widely understaood that the liley question papaers for the exasm would be leaked & available. So my hostel mates were quite intelligent who were aware of the next day gimmicks. The previous day itself, were posing challenges to each other …they couldn’t be fooled ever. Next day morning, all of us had breakfast together in the mess, & left the place. I remembered, I haven’t had tea as it was too hot & went back there to have one. The mess boy returned Rs.50 & notified, the monthly mess fees which were paid the previous day were slashed since this month, so inform others too to collect the money from me. I shook my head, & came back to my room with a new scheme to make this fool’s day momentous. I informed one of my neighbors seriously, “the mess fees we paid yesterday are increased as of this month. I paid my money. You people are asked to pay immediately.”This guy knocked each door & the news spread like any buzz, all the guys formed meeting & collecting the money headed towards the mess. I was waiting in my room for my roommate (who was my best friend too), to tell these funnies but before I said anything, he too ran away to mess with 50 Rs. I dint stop…one more feather in the cap:))I was waiting for the blast when the guys arrived, but amazing! No reaction. They behaved normally. “Did u pay?”, I asked. All shook head. Guess, the mess boy was clever enuff, collected money & sat quiet. Then, I confessed, “U people are fooled, we don’t have to pay ...but we are to get money back as the mess bills are slashed from this month.” Shock! Surprise! & Tension!...all fools have paid money & the lad has kept it with him.Hustle and bustle …all guys formed a mass, ran down to the mess, found him out & asked the money back. Warden was there itself…& he gave each of them Rs. 50 back. “the other 50??” they yelled . “It’s only 50 to return” he said. Warden was watching.... “only 50/ to be given back…he has given that, right?”. Guys anxiously… “No Sir he has to give 50/more which we paid some time ago because of our buddy’s “April Fool” passion. There loomed the boy; laughing & blaring …returned the bonus :)
Guys, Warden & the boy…couldn’t resist mirth … the fun was pretty memorable.
"The first of April is the day we remember what we are the other 364 days of the year."-- Mark Twain . Hmmmmm…quite true ;)Could not agree with him more
& & & how on earth can I not mention dat APRIL 1st is my DAD's B'day too!Watz more interesting is d fact dat its my Mother-in-law's B'day too!?? To my amussement I seem to have a real bondage with April1st as most of the mother's of the females who I was closest during my growing up years were all April1st born!! ya..its true! Belive it or not!!!
Dat reminds me 2 add a titbit: My dad was the 6th child to my grandparents.Those were the days without phones or cell phones! My grandma was pregnant with my dad & was ideally expected to deliver a baby sometime in May'1940! She had gone to her relatives house on 1.April'1940 by walk climbing up the hills in Bayer,a suburb of M'lore. All the other siblings of my dad were mostly grown up & alsmot into employment,higher studies etc as there was a long gap between this prgenancy & the ones earlier(was told that my grandpa was busy travelling those e years of separation..hehehe).So when my dad was actually born on April1st no one belived it as no one expected my granny woudl deliver a month in advance.On top of it,my grandma was quiet a happening lady & was famous for playing practical jokes on others.So when she was actually crying out aloud in pain,no one bothered ot go near her at her friend's place as they thought my grandma was playing her APRIL FOOL Prank!!! sigh...........
So 3 cheers to April Fools' day!!
Ture Essence of Love!!
The Essence of Love*
A Heart touching mail, I received from a friend. …it’s truly evocative. The times when we are in a relationship…be it friendship or having found our soul mates, when we are concerned about & are proud to be with them in the present state when we cheer around celebrating Valentines Day… how long do we last in the relationship? How far we take care of each other’s feelings? Do we sense beyond gifts & partying that how strong is the base of our relation? We need to pose ourselves “Are we committed for long”?Just check the mail unfolding the relation between 2 lovely, innocent birds…It was a gloomy Saturday afternoon. A flock of birds was spending great time searching for food and playing on the main road. Out of the sudden, a big truck sped through... sad thing had happened again. Birds can feel too. Although this bird had already died, another bird flew over to her immediately, just like a family member, unable to accept the truth.
Not long after that, another car stormed in causing the dead bird's body to whirl with the wind. The spouse noticed the movement. As if she was still alive, he quickly flew beside her again.
He stayed beside her and yelled ... "WHY ARE YOU NOT GETTING UP!?"
Unfortunately, she's no longer able to hear him. In the meantime, he's trying to lift her up.
He, of course, was unable to bear the burden. Another car soon passed by. He quickly flew off. Once the car had gone, he came down again.
Although other birds told him it’s useless, he never gave up. He was trying his best to lift her up to see her flying again. Another car passed by, her dead body whirled again as if still alive and trying to fly.
He had used all of his energy, however... The photographer said he couldn't shoot any longer. The photographer was so worried that the living bird was going to get hurt by passing cars. So he picked up the dead bird and left it at the roadside. The live one still lingered at a nearby tree as if crying with his singing and refused to leave.
Do humans have the same feelings nowadays? I wonder.
If Some Body has fallen who cares....?????
Yes, it’s true. And if the person is our own, it takes a little time to replace the person….we humans! How easily we let go somebody for silly reasons, tiny misunderstandings, lack of adjustments & sometimes for our self-centered desires.That somebody may be a family member, a friend or a person we preferred as soul mate. Becos of Ill health, loss of wealth, sometimes to shape our career, sometimes to escape society tittle-tattle and sometimes to maintain our prestige & we are sometimes just helpless to bump into some circumstances and we finally let them go ... just let them go. We forget that love, that faith & that commitment & the feelings we had shared once.
Guess, these birds are invoking in us the real meaning of Love!
A Heart touching mail, I received from a friend. …it’s truly evocative. The times when we are in a relationship…be it friendship or having found our soul mates, when we are concerned about & are proud to be with them in the present state when we cheer around celebrating Valentines Day… how long do we last in the relationship? How far we take care of each other’s feelings? Do we sense beyond gifts & partying that how strong is the base of our relation? We need to pose ourselves “Are we committed for long”?Just check the mail unfolding the relation between 2 lovely, innocent birds…It was a gloomy Saturday afternoon. A flock of birds was spending great time searching for food and playing on the main road. Out of the sudden, a big truck sped through... sad thing had happened again. Birds can feel too. Although this bird had already died, another bird flew over to her immediately, just like a family member, unable to accept the truth.
Not long after that, another car stormed in causing the dead bird's body to whirl with the wind. The spouse noticed the movement. As if she was still alive, he quickly flew beside her again.
He stayed beside her and yelled ... "WHY ARE YOU NOT GETTING UP!?"
Unfortunately, she's no longer able to hear him. In the meantime, he's trying to lift her up.
He, of course, was unable to bear the burden. Another car soon passed by. He quickly flew off. Once the car had gone, he came down again.
Although other birds told him it’s useless, he never gave up. He was trying his best to lift her up to see her flying again. Another car passed by, her dead body whirled again as if still alive and trying to fly.
He had used all of his energy, however... The photographer said he couldn't shoot any longer. The photographer was so worried that the living bird was going to get hurt by passing cars. So he picked up the dead bird and left it at the roadside. The live one still lingered at a nearby tree as if crying with his singing and refused to leave.
Do humans have the same feelings nowadays? I wonder.
If Some Body has fallen who cares....?????
Yes, it’s true. And if the person is our own, it takes a little time to replace the person….we humans! How easily we let go somebody for silly reasons, tiny misunderstandings, lack of adjustments & sometimes for our self-centered desires.That somebody may be a family member, a friend or a person we preferred as soul mate. Becos of Ill health, loss of wealth, sometimes to shape our career, sometimes to escape society tittle-tattle and sometimes to maintain our prestige & we are sometimes just helpless to bump into some circumstances and we finally let them go ... just let them go. We forget that love, that faith & that commitment & the feelings we had shared once.
Guess, these birds are invoking in us the real meaning of Love!
Ture Essence of Love!!
The Essence of Love*
A Heart touching mail, I received from a friend. …it’s truly evocative. The times when we are in a relationship…be it friendship or having found our soul mates, when we are concerned about & are proud to be with them in the present state when we cheer around celebrating Valentines Day… how long do we last in the relationship? How far we take care of each other’s feelings? Do we sense beyond gifts & partying that how strong is the base of our relation? We need to pose ourselves “Are we committed for long”?Just check the mail unfolding the relation between 2 lovely, innocent birds…It was a gloomy Saturday afternoon. A flock of birds was spending great time searching for food and playing on the main road. Out of the sudden, a big truck sped through... sad thing had happened again. Birds can feel too. Although this bird had already died, another bird flew over to her immediately, just like a family member, unable to accept the truth.
Not long after that, another car stormed in causing the dead bird's body to whirl with the wind. The spouse noticed the movement. As if she was still alive, he quickly flew beside her again.
He stayed beside her and yelled ... "WHY ARE YOU NOT GETTING UP!?"
Unfortunately, she's no longer able to hear him. In the meantime, he's trying to lift her up.
He, of course, was unable to bear the burden. Another car soon passed by. He quickly flew off. Once the car had gone, he came down again.
Although other birds told him it’s useless, he never gave up. He was trying his best to lift her up to see her flying again. Another car passed by, her dead body whirled again as if still alive and trying to fly.
He had used all of his energy, however... The photographer said he couldn't shoot any longer. The photographer was so worried that the living bird was going to get hurt by passing cars. So he picked up the dead bird and left it at the roadside. The live one still lingered at a nearby tree as if crying with his singing and refused to leave.
Do humans have the same feelings nowadays? I wonder.
If Some Body has fallen who cares....?????
Yes, it’s true. And if the person is our own, it takes a little time to replace the person….we humans! How easily we let go somebody for silly reasons, tiny misunderstandings, lack of adjustments & sometimes for our self-centered desires.That somebody may be a family member, a friend or a person we preferred as soul mate. Becos of Ill health, loss of wealth, sometimes to shape our career, sometimes to escape society tittle-tattle and sometimes to maintain our prestige & we are sometimes just helpless to bump into some circumstances and we finally let them go ... just let them go. We forget that love, that faith & that commitment & the feelings we had shared once.
Guess, these birds are invoking in us the real meaning of Love!
A Heart touching mail, I received from a friend. …it’s truly evocative. The times when we are in a relationship…be it friendship or having found our soul mates, when we are concerned about & are proud to be with them in the present state when we cheer around celebrating Valentines Day… how long do we last in the relationship? How far we take care of each other’s feelings? Do we sense beyond gifts & partying that how strong is the base of our relation? We need to pose ourselves “Are we committed for long”?Just check the mail unfolding the relation between 2 lovely, innocent birds…It was a gloomy Saturday afternoon. A flock of birds was spending great time searching for food and playing on the main road. Out of the sudden, a big truck sped through... sad thing had happened again. Birds can feel too. Although this bird had already died, another bird flew over to her immediately, just like a family member, unable to accept the truth.
Not long after that, another car stormed in causing the dead bird's body to whirl with the wind. The spouse noticed the movement. As if she was still alive, he quickly flew beside her again.
He stayed beside her and yelled ... "WHY ARE YOU NOT GETTING UP!?"
Unfortunately, she's no longer able to hear him. In the meantime, he's trying to lift her up.
He, of course, was unable to bear the burden. Another car soon passed by. He quickly flew off. Once the car had gone, he came down again.
Although other birds told him it’s useless, he never gave up. He was trying his best to lift her up to see her flying again. Another car passed by, her dead body whirled again as if still alive and trying to fly.
He had used all of his energy, however... The photographer said he couldn't shoot any longer. The photographer was so worried that the living bird was going to get hurt by passing cars. So he picked up the dead bird and left it at the roadside. The live one still lingered at a nearby tree as if crying with his singing and refused to leave.
Do humans have the same feelings nowadays? I wonder.
If Some Body has fallen who cares....?????
Yes, it’s true. And if the person is our own, it takes a little time to replace the person….we humans! How easily we let go somebody for silly reasons, tiny misunderstandings, lack of adjustments & sometimes for our self-centered desires.That somebody may be a family member, a friend or a person we preferred as soul mate. Becos of Ill health, loss of wealth, sometimes to shape our career, sometimes to escape society tittle-tattle and sometimes to maintain our prestige & we are sometimes just helpless to bump into some circumstances and we finally let them go ... just let them go. We forget that love, that faith & that commitment & the feelings we had shared once.
Guess, these birds are invoking in us the real meaning of Love!
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